Don’t talk to him

So Friday night/Saturday morning was a great night out with my work fam.  We had our Midwinter and it was awesome….a lot of alcohol was consumed so of course…words were exchanged.

Now if you’ve been reading my posts for a while you will know that earlier this year I went through heartbreak, after being out of contact for 5-ish months we’re talking again. I am willing to b friends and so is he, he’s apologised and I made sure he knew that I didn’t deserve to be treated like that and that he was going to stay sorry. We’ve also decided to be supportive of each others fitness goals, so far so good but on Friday night I told a good friend of mine that I’m seeing a new guy and that me and the ex are talking again.

He pretty much gave me a growling lol and said I should stop talking to my ex and that got to me. I’m good with being friends and I know that it’s never going passed the point of being friends. How do I know that? Because I’m not going to allow myself to be that hurt ever again. But is it wrong that I want to be friends with him?  I know I can keep my feelings in check, I’ve done it many times before…but after that talk on Friday night, I’ve been wondering.

Two team leaders at work know about what happened, and I’ve told them I’m seeing someone else, told them that it’s ok to talk to him as long as I don’t get back with him. So I am…and I’m not getting back with him don’t worry lol urrrgeh I liked it better when this didn’t matter but should I stop talking to him?

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Can you exercise alone?

I made a realisation this week at the gym. While I’m happy to go everyday I am willing to go if someone goes with me, luckily I have awesome and supportive friends who go with me but at the same time I think it’s kinda sad.

Like the gym is a place anyone should feel comfortable to go to, we’re all there for roughly the same reason, we want to look and feel healthier.  But when I looked around one super busy evening, I was surrounded by people running, lifting weights, working on the machines for long periods of time and I just felt like a big blob on a treadmill walking like an unfit hippo….which I am might I add.

I always feel encouraged when I’m with someone I know, cause if I see them going then I wanna keep going. And when I’m with my trainer I wanna push harder and get through her challenges…but when I’ by myself I wanna be invisible. So what I want to know is how do people get over that?  How does someone just decide “yeap I’m going to the gym by myself”.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated 😀

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