Being attracted to yourself

I’ve always thought of myself as someone who loved herself no matter what, but what I’m finding on this weight loss journey is that I’m falling in love with myself in different ways. For example, I like my smile, I wasn’t a big fan of it in my teen years but could see how pretty I looked with a smile. Now I freaking love my smile, I lowkey think I look hot as fuck with a smile on my face. Why do I love it now?  Well to be honest, I’m not so focussed on how chubby my cheeks are, or how round my face is, or that double chin cause it’s slowly disappearing as I lose weight. And so instead of worrying about the things I don’t like I’m starting to see things I do like.

I’m not a twig right now, actually if any of you saw me you’d probably laugh and still think I’m fat, which I am but I’m smaller than what I was.  I can feel the change in my clothes and I can see it on some parts of my body. The parts of myself I’m falling in love with aren’t even the things people usually like about themselves after weight loss.  Besides my smile, I love my legs, my eyebrows, my hair and my thighs.

What do I love about them? I love that they’re all strong features and together create this beautiful me. I can’t move/walk/run without my legs and my thighs, they keep me going and they look bomb af in heels lol . My hair, eyebrows and smile are effortless features and I can appreciate them for what they are. Beautiful.  I have super thick eyebrows but when they’re groomed gurrrl they look bomb ! hahaha

Ok so basically what I’m trying to say is that I love the way I look right now. I feel confident, beautiful and attractive.  It’s a nice feeling to know that I love myself, not just an internal emotional love but a physical one as well.  Not sure if that makes sense but it does to me. Anyways that’s all for today, more updates soon.



Can you exercise alone?

I made a realisation this week at the gym. While I’m happy to go everyday I am willing to go if someone goes with me, luckily I have awesome and supportive friends who go with me but at the same time I think it’s kinda sad.

Like the gym is a place anyone should feel comfortable to go to, we’re all there for roughly the same reason, we want to look and feel healthier.  But when I looked around one super busy evening, I was surrounded by people running, lifting weights, working on the machines for long periods of time and I just felt like a big blob on a treadmill walking like an unfit hippo….which I am might I add.

I always feel encouraged when I’m with someone I know, cause if I see them going then I wanna keep going. And when I’m with my trainer I wanna push harder and get through her challenges…but when I’ by myself I wanna be invisible. So what I want to know is how do people get over that?  How does someone just decide “yeap I’m going to the gym by myself”.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated 😀


Health and Fitness

So it’s been a while (I’m writing like someone is actually going to read this) I’ve been going to the gym for the last few weeks..and boooy am I hooked ! I have one personal trainer session a week and that’s actually a lot of fun, then one “intense” session with a work frien..only cause it’s followed by Korean BBQ lol and then every other day I walk on the treadmill for at least 30 minutes.

So far it feels amazing, I can feel changes in my body in terms of small weight loss and my fitness it getting better. They’re not super amazing changes but they’re good changes nonetheless.  I never really thought I’d be excited to work out and be as consistent as I am but it’s going well.

I’ll be honest I haven’t worked out by myself yet…I’m kinda scared of everyone else watching me.  I know they probably don’t care but I feel like the fattest person there but I’m working on it. Building my confidence bit by bit.

With that being said I’m going to be posting more about fitness and health.  Time to finally get this summer bod I’ve been wanting for the last few years.